The beat goes on.

The beat of your heart still goes on even when you feel like it shouldn't!

This is why no one has the right to say they don't want to live anymore.

It is wrong to end your life before it should.

I can say this because I have wanted to die.

I was told a few months ago that after my 6x lots of chemo there wasn't anything for me.

I have an agressive form of cancer: xxx negative.

It has spread to both my lungs.

 My Oncologist now says that another chemo has come on the free list and he will try me on it.

Do I want to go through another cycle of chemo?

NO!

Do I want to live?

YES!

As long as there's life, there's hope.

You have to give yourself every chance.

What a Year!

What a year it has been so far!

I discovered a mass in my left breast on 26th January 2009.

It was such a shock. I wasn't in the 'at risk' group of women!

I'd breast fed all 6 of my children, no history of breast cancer in my family tree.

Didn't take HRT, not on the Pill!

Where did it come from then?

It's been a whirlwind of appointments, surgery, chemo these last 8mths.

How have I coped with it all?

I've cried more than any other time in my life.

 I've laughed again.

Life goes on whether you like it or not.

I see lots of things through a different perspective now.

I am glad to still be alive.

 Yet I've wanted to die so many times this year.

I want to share my thoughts and feelings .

Maybe I can help someone else get through their cancer journey.